writing my way home

Sara sat peacefully in her front yard, under the shade of an old maple tree.  "Her tree", as she knew it. It had been hers for almost nine years now, since the first day of her family's arrival to their new home.  She had been 8 years old then and very much a tomboy.  Just about every kid in the neighborhood had told her that the tree was an impossible one to climb, but Sara was optimistic and made it to the top on her very first attempt.  After that, she knew that the big tree belonged to her, and throughout the years it had remained her faithful friend.  The name of every boy she had ever had a crush on was carved into the highest branch.  When she needed to be alone, the cool, quiet shade was always there for her, or at times like this, when she liked to be close to nature and write down all of her deepest thoughts into her spiral notebook.

Sara rolled around and relaxed her back into the softness of the grass.  A warm summer breeze blew lightly across her face, and barely rustled the leaves hanging from the branches above her.  A feeling close to heaven overcame her body and Sara wished that she could hold on to it forever.  This was were she found ultimate happiness.  Her heart was here, in every inch of the tree and every space on the ground below it.  This was her home.

There is more to the story, but I'll stop there.  I found this in a box in my parent's basement.  A box full of many notebooks, full of many stories.  This is me paying homage to my teenage self.

I wrote stories all through my childhood, just for fun, but stopped when real life set in.  I didn't think I was good enough.  I didn't think being a writer was realistic.  I didn't have the time.

I really wish I hadn't listened to that twenty-something year old girl, who thought she knew everything, but made most of her decisions based in fear.  I can't blame her for not knowing all of the things I know now.

I doubt if I'll climb the tree on my first attempt, but I'm going to try.

Writer's block: over

a rainy day sunshine connection

It's a gloomy, rainy day here today, but I've been nudged by my friend Corinne to do the "sunshine thing" as she calls it (an old school way of sharing and connecting to other bloggers), so I'm just going to get over myself and the gloom and do it.  I met Corinne back when I started blogging in 2010.  She is one of the kindest souls I know, and if it weren't for her (I've said this before), I don't think I would have continued on this blogging journey.  However rocky it may be at times, I'm still here and I am better for it.  So...

Here are the rules:
~ Acknowledge the nominating blogger
~ Share 11 random facts about yourself
~ Answer the 11 questions the nominating blogger creates for you
~ List 11 bloggers
~Post 11 questions for the bloggers you nominate to answer and let all the bloggers know they've been nominated (You cannot nominate the blogger who nominated you.)  And away we go...

Some random facts about me...

  1. I collect rocks and cameras.
  2. My favorite book from childhood is Uncle Remus.
  3. I have a really good memory.  I consider it both a blessing and a curse.
  4. My first car was a bright yellow 1970 Camaro.
  5. I'm and introvert AND an extrovert.  I frustrate myself sometimes.
  6. My best "party trick" is something I learned on the kid's show Zoom when I was 7.  (If you want to see's Bernadette at :37)
  7. I've read a lot of self-help books in the past six years, but The Secret Life of Bees, by Sue Monk Kidd is the book that changed me.
  8. Ironically, unrelated to the book, I'll be keeping bees for the first time this summer.
  9. My favorite toy growing up, was my portable tape recorder.  I logged many hours as either "spy" or "DJ".
  10. I don't like air conditioning.  I never turn it on in my car and only when I really need to in the house.
  11. I've held a hummingbird in my hands.  Letting it go was amazing.

...How was that for random?

My answers to Corinne's questions... 

  1. What is the song you could listen to on repeat for hours?  This was a hard one for me.  I like so many different kinds of music and some songs hold a lot of meaning for me, but I couldn't listen to them for hours.  I settled on three that I know I have listened to on repeat...George Michael - Freedom, The Eagles - Seven Bridges Road, and The Jackson 5 - I Want You Back.
  2. What was your first job?  Burger King...ugh!
  3. What are three of your passions? making/creating, gardening, and treasure hunting 
  4. When and where do you feel most at peace?  When I'm near water...river, beach, even a tiny creek will do.  Also, lazy day lounging with my kids.
  5. What do you love to do that stretches you out of your comfort zone?  This...anything social media related.
  6. As a child what did you want to be when you grew up?  a writer or a marine biologist
  7. What was the last concert you went to?  Other than my kid's orchestra and choir concerts, the last "grown-up" concert I went to was the Barenaked Ladies in 2010.
  8. How would you spend a day free of commitments and have to's and should do's?  Add blueberry or chocolate chip pancakes for breakfast to #4 and that would be it.
  9. Favorite holiday and why?  Halloween...I always feel like I should say Christmas, but Halloween just makes me happy...the candy, the costumes, the pumpkin carving...I love it all.
  10. What's on your wish list right now?  a new home (with lots of land!), a Polaroid sx-70 camera, and a VW bus
  11. What actor will you watch in anything, no matter the quality of the movie?  Matt Damon (For example, have you ever seen the movie, Gerry?)

List 11 bloggers..

Instead of listing 11 about...if you happen to read this post and you want to join in the fun, then consider yourself tagged, just let me know in the comments.

Here are your 11 questions... 

  1. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be and why?
  2. Is there anyone famous that you feel might leave you starstruck if you met them in person?
  3. What is your favorite quote?
  4. What would you do with your time everyday if money were no object?
  5. What was the last really big life lesson that you learned?
  6. Favorite flower and why?
  7. What is your best birthday memory?
  8. Can you remember the details of a random act of kindness situation where you were either the giver or the receiver and how it made you feel?
  9. When was the last time you laughed until you cried?
  10. Favorite movie and why?
  11. If you were forced to pick just one form of social media (facebook, twitter, blog, instagram, etc...) what would it be?  

So that's it!  I did it.  Thanks so much Corinne for giving me a nudge to get me out of my writer's slump.  I do understand now one of the things that hold me back when I come to this space to write.  It's the time it takes...the process of getting lost in it.  That's the demon I need to wrestle with.

But, this was fun.

destination unknown

“Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.” - Howard Thurman

I saw this quote at least twice yesterday, and even though I've posted it myself before, I think it's worth repeating.  


I am having such a hard time finding my way out of this silence.  I don't know why I'm feeling such a strong resistance, but I am.  I have a story to tell you (many, really), but it's such a beautiful, sunny day...I need to get out in it!