I just chucked three years worth of blog archives. It was a tough decision, but I'm feeling pretty good about it. I made a hard copy of everything, so it's not lost forever. I just needed a fresh start...a clean slate...a new beginning.
I've struggled, the past three years, to find my voice...not only online, but in the real world as well. I was feeling pressure to pick a direction, but I was also paralyzed by the fear of picking the wrong one. Stuck at the dreaded crossroads.
Out of pure frustration, I stopped forcing myself to make a move, and did the only other thing I hadn't tried yet. I sat down in the middle of my indecision, and did nothing, except ask myself one question...why? I didn't need to know what. I needed to know why. After a while though, I didn't even need to know why.
I sat with myself long enough to realize that the what and the why were the same thing. It's everything that I have right in front of me...everything within arms length.
While I sat doing nothing, I played with my kids, I tended my garden, I took better care of myself, and I laughed a lot. I found everything in my time spent doing nothing.
I think the dreaded crossroads are just some kind of mental double vision; a trick illusion meant to drive us crazy.
Once I decided to chill (and by chill I mean, stop stressing about what I was going to do with my life, and just start living my life), I noticed there was only one path stretched out in front of me...mine...this one. Yee haw.
Welcome to my new online home! I hope you'll feel comfortable here.